Well, projects this semester were amazingly tiring.

But our effort paid off and scored pretty well for our coursework grades!

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Business Calculus exam is finally over

After struggling with it, skipping lectures & tutorials.

I AM RELIEVED.

But I did enjoyed certain parts when doing cal.

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SIP is starting soon :(

Hope Fred Perry is good!

Sigh, shouldve waited for the school to assign me instead of self-securing.

i.want.higher.pay.please!

#thinktoomuch

Alright, bye! Im gonna watch movies on my new TV.

;D

Just had my NAPFA test 2 days back.

Urgh, had stitches during the run cuz i drank too much water.

Hovering between wanting to pass and just giving up for 3 runs.....

ended up wanting to try my luck, but my luck failed me.

i failed by 29 seczx.

i wished i ignored the pain and ran.

Year 3 is killing me.

Rmt Orientation

;D

In these few months, I haven't been reflecting, and I developed a habit of bottling up my emotions unknowingly. Not all emotions, but perhaps some.

I'm very blessed to have a doting grandpa and grandma. Though they are not around in this world, they will be in my heart forever. Yes, I lost my grandpa around a month back. I don't know if the reason behind not crying as much, is that I loved him lesser than grandma, or that I've grown up and became stronger.

Perhaps I've became stronger, and expected that this day would come soon. But I didn't expect soon, to be this soon. The same reason: heart attack. To see him alive, on the very last day, really hurts me bad. I guess it is better than not seeing him,catching his last breath. He was fighting against death, just to see his eldest son.

I know my grandpa, loves me a lot. He cares about what time I come home every time I'm late. But all I did was to say, orh. I guess this is part of growing up. I did my best, to buy him his favourite Toa Payoh's pau every time I went there.

I act like I don't bother but deep down, I didn't want to tear open a wounded heart. I don't wish to share how I feel, because crying makes me feel vulnerable. Losing my grandpa, makes me feel so insecure. It feels like I can lose anyone, right now. I get really worried for my dad when he drive. I just don't feel good when he goes to work.

I felt that I could have done better as a granddaughter. The best I can do now, is to be filial to my dad, who raised me up singlehandedly, and my mom, who was there when I needed her.

I really miss my grandparents.

I could have been a better granddaughter.